QUOTE(BIGFINEWOMAN @ Sep 5 2006, 08:18 PM) [snapback]337392[/snapback]
Thanks Chuck, but to the rest of the uninformed @#%^ &*^.
Because of these comments I am trembling. I tremble with anger because YALL DON'T KNOW!!!!! Every night I force myself to sleep. Everyday I force myself to drive 180 miles 90 going and 90 to come back. I pass my house almost daily and I suffer. I suffer silently because no one understands. Yes, as AA we must take responsibility for our actions and ourselves and I cannot agree with the stupidity of those who still disgrace hardworking people like me, like my friends, and like my co-workers, But for five days I sat on the interstate bridge across from the Superdome; I was not rescued. I instead chose to walk away and save myself, my son, and my stepdaughter I did not wait for the government. But because I was strong enough, but very few other were.
Ya know we just got the insurance company to come out a month ago after they had deemed our home useful, undamaged, and intact. We had to fight tooth and nail just to get the damn adjusters to come back and actually look at the damage. The house is valued at 250k with 100% total damage and loss. This house used to be a brothel and has historic value the insurance co. is paying 65k after speaking with several contractors we have determined that we will either have to abandon the house, do it ourselves with inexpensive low rate materials, or try to sell like the white folks all are doing because to restore the home to its pre-K status will cost us around 120 to 175k.
I have no job I have no income. all that Fema gave is now gone it has been gone for 5 months now. Mines lasted because I had some money put aside so my hurt was a little less. But how can you ask someone to survive off of $ 4,500.00 I replaced my vehicle since my man is an independent car dealer that did'nt hit me too hard I got a 2002 Jeep for 2,500. his cost. okay that was transportation. Now get kids new school clothes and supplies (2) about 500. Now food we did have foodstamp allotments for three months but to re-apply they came up with stricter guidelines, so food cost on average for a household of 5 on the cheap end 500 a month ( Sam's and Walmart specials). Rent the cheapest we found, Friend of the family, $ 750.00 now lights water gas I had to pay Entergy $ 1100.00 just to get service where I live now and I was not the only one. average montly bill $ 225.00 gas $ 100, water $ 75. Gas for my car averaged from December to May 3,300.00 in fuel costs. Fema didn't pay for that my student loan did. So how could you have the nerve to say that someone should have taken their money and started trade school with it. (JackASS)
I WANT TO GO HOME!!!! even though I am fortunate enough to be in my home town I have been treated like shit. I have an education, I lived in a nice house, wore nice clothes, my son and stepdaugter both went to private school, but here I'm seen as a project nigger and I use the term loosely because that mentality does resonate through our communites, but not all of us still swing from trees,but yet my family, my neighbors, and the community all look at me strangly, they listen to my New Orleans slangy but proper prose and they back up. I have been fired twice both times within two weeks because my white co-workers were afraid of me. My son has filled out applications everywhere, but when they see the (504) area code no one calls. Both children have had horrible school experiences. My son was put in the 10th grade, he was a senior and had his shoes stolen ( by white kids). My stepdaughter had her scholarship monies mis-appropiated by the school here( all white) and had to be sent to another school 50 miles away.
These are just some of the daily crappy things that I experience, and I'm strong, got a man, got an education and I have tenacity. So what about Takisha and Shaniqua. where do they fit in, and what about John John , and Travis they had a life too even if they worked at the Sheraton or Burger King and paid their $ 25 dollars rent, caught the (RTA) bus, and walked to the River Walk for entertainment theycan't come back cause thier Fema money, like mines, is gone they don't have cars, and where they live may not have bus service to get them to work and in New Orleans they have no place to live.
Finally, and I'm sorry I wrote so much, NEVER EVER judge a man or woman because of the media this has been white folks' way of de-classing us and inviting exaclty what you promoted, hatred. COME WALK IN MY WATER LOGGED SHOES!!!!!!! so that you'll see and feel me.
if I had a hug smiley, I would definitely use it now.
Like I said before, I wanted no one to take offense to my comments because I do understand where you are coming from. It's definitely hard and I'm glad that you are one of those people who is living with the cards that have been dealt to you in the best way possible. Please do not take what I say personally because I do know of people who are in the situation that I speak, talking about what's going on (and they have been through it supposedly) and are doing nothing about it. It's something that ALL black people do...
....me personally, I have donated monies to charities I feel that do good for the survivors of Katrina. Between this and prayer, this is all I can do, given my situation. I do not judge, at least I do not try to. Especially in your situation. Stay blessed and keep your head up.
Once again, I didn't mean to offend anyone. My apologies if i did.